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I had an AWESOME dream today that had a werewolf (more like weredog lol) and 2 vampires. It was sooo much better than Twilight.
It had like 3 girls in it and one was like this preppy kind of girl (slut-ish) and one looked a tiny bit like Bella from twilight but she was soo much prettier and better, she had brown hair and pale-ish skin like bella but not the personality....she was more moodier and had a crap homelife and past, the 3rd is a bit like the second but she looked more like a rockstar like P!nk but with dark long hair.
Anyway it was sooo kool and it would make an awesome story. So i'm thinking of writing it, i mean it was a long dream that took up most of the day and it really would make a good story maybe not as good as other vampire novels but it would be way better than Twilight.

Oh these headphones don't work. Now everyone (dad) can hear 'Starstruck'.
I got into 10A. I get to do history. shit, highschool is going too fast.
Too fast for me anyway....WAY too fast.

You know what's really pissing me off? well what i've noticed. Now i'm not bragging here but results from other people are obvious that i'm
pretty good at drawing and stuff. The thing that is really pissing off is that none of the Art teachers have seemed to notice this.
To me this is a bad sign, either i'm not as good as i think i am (would'nt be a suprise to me), they don't know me (once again not a suprise) or they are too preoccupied to notice who's got talent and who needs improvement and practice.
I don't know what i can do. I mean yeah maybe i don't want to have a full time career as an artist but it's somthing I at least seem good at,
it's my only talent really and i want to continue in future as somthing i'll do on the side maybe.

Maybe i'm being selfish or immature but i mean for once i just want to get noticed for the art i'm producing and encouraged.
Also the grades are get are average (maybe attendance effected this?) which make me a little bit sadder than i already am.
If i'm not good at this what am i good at? maybe i have'nt practiced enough? maybe it doesn't even matter?
I really don't know

Starting to do a manga. Don't larf, i'm serious.
I'm just wondering if it will last or if i'll get bored with it...... which normally i do.
hmmm.
I think it's time i got serious with this drawinbg business.

Drawing manga = me happy

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The sea BY JASMINE

(Personification)

She is forever awake

Mysteries of what she can take

Calm and happy on a sunny day

Angry and fierce on a grey

Boats and ships

Are her pins and hair clips

The land is her lover

The sky is her brother

She is old but so young

The Forest by Jasmine Tea

( Metaphor poem)

The forest is nature’s city

Tall trees are homes

Busy creatures hurry and scurry

Bees buzz busy with work

Butterflies colour the sky

Snakes slither looking for lunch

Colourful birds let out a screech

The butterfly

By Jasmine Tea

(simile poem)

Like a graceful dancer in the sky

She spreads her wings and begins too fly

Colours like a dress or painting

She flies quickly past the spider waiting

Like flowers petals in the wind

She passed the lake as it glistened

Silent and swift like a rabbit

Landing on flowers is her habit

Like she is in a trance

The city rain

By Jasmine Tea

(5 senses poem/ sight)

I was in the city at night

When my eyes caught a pretty sight < (I did'nt like this line and still don't, it's overused in songs/poems)

It started too rain and lights came on

The city glowed like a silent song

The road normally black and dark

Was filled with colour like the park

Orange, red, purple, blue

Yellow, pink and green too

All mixed into the black road

Letters blurred like a secret code.

I don't think these are good enough to steal and if somone did steal them i don't think they'd get very far with them anyway. But if anyone dares steal them i'll eat them and steal their cookies, coffee, motorscooter (if they have one) and boyfriend. TEEHEE.
Gosh i feel so energised and happy an relaxed, i just feel like jumping and jogging around the street and not caring if every weirdo that lives around my area sees me (even JUSTIN(E) thats how energised i am. oh oh i took a picture of me full on smiling today at 6am and it was sooo cute i looked a bit asian (Don't know which country sorry to Asian people out there, i'm not being racist i embrace the world with open arms!) but i deleted it because my hair was sticking up like a bird nest and i was in my jim jams.

Gosh coffee is such a good creation! i still think we should get a coffee machine though, it would be way quicker and less tiring then shuffling round getting sugar and milk and stuff. hmm feeling a bit sleepy...need more coffee! eh anyway enough about it!

Well happy holidays everyone! (fellows aussi chumettes that is unless other countries have holidays too...hmm)

I hope it warms up i mean it's spring for god sake!
I really want to do spring cleaning and i won't start until it warms up!
Bye bye
Luvs yous
Jaz <3 xox

Woo i am soo energised and i got really bored because mornings are nice and all but they can be sooo boring you know what i mean?
I got so bored so i went on the old computer and suprisingly i still have some old documents on there, suprising because i thought dad would of deleted them hahahah but he does'nt know how to use a computer or anything electronic really well unless its like from the 70's or somthing whenever he was libing and did courses and read books about the brand new invention the buyable computer. Sorry dribbling on a bit there that was really boring HAHAHAHA

Anyway i was looking through some old documents of mine and then i found my old poems HAHAHAHA from last year for an assignment i had to do, i got a really good score even though i forgot to edo a part. the teacher must have been impressed, i think there quite good. Poetry is really all about bullshitting isn't it? sorry i know i'm meant to be all artistic but you knoooww i love poems and THERE NOT ALL BULLSHIT OKAY SOME PEOPLE REALLY PUT THEIR HEART INTO THEM so you know ...oh god i wish my dad would shut up he keeps talking about coffee that he uses and other crap , i was thinknig we should get a coffee machine that would be so easier, tyhen i would'nt have to make so many coffee cos making two was tiring enough heating the kettle and so on... COS COFFEE IS JUST SO GOOD like the second cup i added whipped cream and a some dribbles of maple syrup over the whipped cream and 't tasted SO GOOD.
BOY IT'S COLD!

(This one was'nt in the asignment) I was in a saddish mood when i wrote it...i think. Explains why it's a little creepy...

A dream that’s not a dream
By Jasmine Teaaaa

A dream that’s not a dream,

So it would seem.

Grey days full of rain,

Hoping to wash away the pain.

A flower that hasn’t been watered for ages,

Drying like old journal pages.

Memories of long ago,

Blow away with the snow.

A clock that stops just like a heart,

Somewhere else a brand new start.

Nothing in this empty room,

Just empty souls full of gloom.

It’s like wanting the sun,

Cracks of light our only fun.

Figures with blurry faces,

Walking at different paces.

Murmurs break through,

fake a smile is what we do.

Our hearts are heavy with the pain,

People point and yell we’re too blame.

We wait for the rain too pass,

while looking out fogged up glass.

Thats where it ends, i think i wanted to make it longer but didn't. Funny i remember what scenario/mood i was in when writing this.

The res of the poems will be in my second post since LJ is being an ass cake and i don't know how to attach files.
Creating second post now!

Lots of pillows or just one?
I have 3 pillows on my bed 2 normal rectangular ones, one on top of the other and a small square one that i made in year 8 on the side of them.
What kind of books do you read?
Oh gee, anything really. It's like my adiction i do it all the time, much healthier than the addiction of smoking, drinking alcohol or drugs as some teens choose. Lately i've been reading books by Sarah Dessen, just finished some. I don't relate to her characters that much but the story and plots of her books are brilliant.

What are your most awesome skills?
I don't know. I guess drawing but my painting and drawing teachers think i'm average and there are so many drawers/sketchesARTISTS better than me, it gets me down. But i do think my most awesome skill would be drawing :) IMO anyway...

What's your occupation?
High school student. Nexst year i'm gtoing to get a job.

What's really creepy?
I don't know. Does anyone know what creepy REALLY is?

What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Listening to the Sex Pistols, thinking about their catchy songs all the time that are constantly playing in my head.
Watching the Nana series AGAIN. Sims 2. yep.

What flavor ice cream would you choose right now?
None i just ate lots of ice cream so i'm full.

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Livejournal, Veoh, Facebook(!), myspace and sometimes mod the sims 2.

What was the last thing you bought?
Movie tickets and asian food.

What was the cutest thing you've seen today?
A puppy.

Do you get cravings? If so, what do you crave?
TUNG TUNG SUSHI TERRIYAKI CHICKEN NOODLE! i always crave this! i need to know their secret!

What do you do to change your mood?
Mope, draw, listen to music, play sims 2 or just plain bitch to my BFF.

What is your zodiac sign?
Aries though it doesn't suite me at all. I was born in the year of the pig, that i can relate to....

Do you want to learn another language?
I want to continue learning japanese, i miss it sooo much. I don't really want to learn any other languages.

Five things you can't live without.
Music, comp&internet, movies, books, my notebook thingy that has all my sketches drawings and writing in it, pencils, greyleds, erasers, sharpner, sketches and wow i gues the whole world.

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
Talk to me please. We'll both feel better if you do and i miss you.

What are you looking forward to?
Holidays and the new year.

Say something to the person who tagged you:
Hi Cee, hows it going? you know i don't think i have anyone else to tag :/

Sick of school. Sick of being treated like shit. Sick of it all. Sick of life.

I'm worried about you i don't know where you are now. I saw the sign. I left you the text message i hoped you recieved. I miss you, I miss you so much and i just wish you were here with me so we could both talk because right now i know how you feel, maybe not as bad but i do. I really do.
Please please call me i really wish this message come to you even though i don't really believe in all that spiritual stuff i just want you to know
i still care and i'm so sorry so so sorry i have'nt been there for you. Maybe this message is pointless but these words keep me at ease.
I miss you, i'm worried. Call me. Im waiting.
I'll try calling you again...soon.

life is shit.

Last saturday me and my family drove to Melbourne because we were going to Dymocks to get presents for our 'christmas in July' yep though i think by the time we actually do it the day will be the first of august. oh well don't want to be the wet blanket. oh oh oh Lisa Mitchell's album is coming out tommorrow ..YAY! I persuaded mum to buy me it she thought i wanted a pink album but i'm like no no and she was like we'll see.

Anyway lol i'm getting off track on Saturday we drove to Melbourne and parked in the melbourne museum carpark , like usual which is normally empty but that day it was PACKED because an organic food thing was on and i think the museum might have had a new exhibit. Then we took the tram and walked to Dymocks and it was sooo awesome and HUGE. i was there for ages staring at the art books, this hot guy with blonde hair walked past seriously hot but i suspected he was gay, he was wearing a leather jacket and in the art section so yeah. I figured i could just copy techniques from the library books so i checked out YA books and decided to get another book from angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging series and this awesome folder notebook thing for my sketches and drawings. The stationary (notebook wise) is awesome. Ithink i belong there :P My parents were getting so impatient because it took me forever. so the books are our prezzies :D

After that we walked to this place were they have really nice food and me and mum got wraps for lunch, they were yummy.
Then i went out and took some pics of the yarra river : v seee v







(they look better bigger)
then we took the tram back to the museum and i went and took photos of gardens and the statues and fountains near the museum, which was nice of mum and dad to let me because they came out really good. i <3 taking photos of Melbourne :D




it was an awesome day <3

Today was okay.
I'm pissed off at english teacher because he's never here on thursdays because we have a double english in the morning...lazy slacker i come to school to learn he comes to school to teach and i'm sure Ms Rat is getting sick of us, you can tell by the tones she's beginning to use.
Anyway civics was ok and painting and drawing we met a teacher who will be taking over our theory lessons, she looks really awesome like her style and way she dresses but is her personality as good as her style? i hope so.
P.E. we had the beep test, me and Ann-Marie dropped out at 2.1 (we planned it before because we could'nt be fucked and my foot was still sore) i could have gone more because i didn't feel exhausted but meh my foot hurt like hell. After everyone did the beep test we played a wierd dodgeball cross skittles game, i admit it was fun because  ididn't have to do anything :)
While me and Ann-marie were out of the beep test she told me 'frenchy' still liked me and i was like when did you last talk she answered 'today'. i laughed and said thats nice and was like 'he does'nt even talk to me!'. i thought by now he'd be over me. hmm.
"i think i'm through with men before i've even started going out with them."

So yeah my day was'nt that bad but on the way to the park i was walking slowly, limping kind of and these girls were walking behind me and they were saying stuff like 'her skirt is so short' and things that were leading on and then one was like 'she looks like such a slut'
It was obvious they were talking about me, and they were so close like basically right behind me.
It brought me down for a while but eventually i decided i should'nt waste time about that.

 

and that was my day :)

Today was okay. I guess i didn't really do much to be honest, well anything important. After school i played Sims 2 for hours until mum got home and we went to the plaza, IT WAS AWESOME. We went to angus & robertson and i saw this deal for 2 books for the price of one, it was my favourite series too (unfortunately it was only for that certain book pack) NO it wasn't twilight, it was the latest books (released in australia anyways) of the angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging series. So i was happy, then i had my favourite terriyaki chicken and noodle dish from tung tung sushi in a large size. i was sooo full, i'm not going to get such a big size next time i did'nt know it would be that big.

Then we went to K-mart and i looked at everything, especially the CD's to see if i was wrong about the date of Lisa Mitchell's new album (i was'nt, still hasn't come out yet =[ ) so i went and joined mum and i found a really pretty top but it was like $40, it was really pretty but i don't think mum would buy it for me. Then i went futher along and i saw this really really pretty dress, it was black with patters of flowers and birds in white. IT WAS SO AWESOME! i was like :O it's perfect! and mum looked at me like 'it looks frigen ugly' but she really said 'are you sure you'll wear it?'
and i was like all hyper and nodding and happy. It's so soft and warmm too. So she bought it for me and i looove it <3

then when i got home i went back to playing sims and there was a teen couple i made that were so cute but then the dude grew up so the girl could only be frinds with him so it was like she was sooo wanting to be like kissing him and stuff but she could'nt cause he was an adult so i made her an adult and they acted like friends at first but then they went back to true love and it was soooo cute <3 It was so true simulated love :)

Gahhhh i'm so tired. Me and my da drove to the city to get windows XP because it was cheap there or somthing. I know right it was a such an adventure, microsoft better be happy we're a paying customer haha!
He's happy lately because he's got money ...i forgot how much but i think the government gave it to him because he's a carer. I don't know somthing like that, but gosh who ever he was talking to yesterday he went on for ages because he was so happy. It was so annoying.
Talking about he's old work and football and stuff and some guy jokingly shooting at people who threw cans at ducks. He's gone off now to get microsoft office... yay! now the new computer can finally be connected up! and i can play SIMS 2 AHHHHHHH!!!!!11!!! eeeeee!

ehem yeah anyway...
on the last days of holidays.....on the saturday my family and i went to the city and had lunch at the kool place that had really really nice wraps, we were going to go to dymmocks book store (i went there once and i LOVED it so much seriously i think i could live there just reading forever) but we did'nt have enough time. Then we went to a park to go on the ferris wheel, it was near the circus oz. It was really nice on the ferris wheel the view was good and we stayed on for a while, i wish i had brought my camera and taken photos.
It was a good way to end the holidays.

So back to school (this is the 3rd day), tommorrow i have PE :P. I'm not taking any days of this semester (unless of course it's a holiday or a correction day). It's breen pretty crap so far but i can live with it and i'm sure it will get way better :)...hopefully hehe!

thanks for reading :P
Jaz <3

I can't believe half the year has gone already, then again i've done alot when i think about it so i guess i can believe it.
so that mean a new semester. crap. I wasn't there today because i was so exhausted from the long weekend so i have to get my timetable tommorrow. well that will be great i can't wait to get an odd stare from the coordinator or a lecture that will make me tear up.

On friday i went shopping to buy stuff for my friends present. My brother and Dad came but they went off and did stuff without me, then met up to have lunch with me. It was so odd to see dad happy and at the plaza. Normally he hates shopping or going anywhere, but for once he was actually fine and Lachlan was so excited and happy too. Very odd.

Saturday was mega fun, i met CJ in the early morning and well we played sims 3 for a little while before we had to go and wait for the bus. the bus took 40 FUCKING MINUTES! even more and it was sooo cold. it sucked, except for one thing (sleazy face appears)
There was this really cute guy who waited a little for the bas with us, he came while CJ was talking about Lost (which seems like a really fucked up but hilarious show XD). When we got on the bus he was behind me and (from previously noticing he was kind of cute) i was quiet in front of the bus driver and blushed and was like 'um is that the right money?' because honestly i didn't have much of an idea of what i was doing >,<
according to CJ the cute guy stared at me like during the bus trip but obviously i did'nt know this so i have no idea what way he was looking at me. Maybe he thought i was retarded but CJ thinks he was so crushing on me. Damn if  i knew i would have gone and said hi XD. Sadly he did'nt get off at the plaza stop :(.

ehem! anyways...
we were going to the plaza to find CJ a nice cardigan. We looked everywhere in Kmart but it sucked so we tried big W. We did'nt find a good cardigan but we did find a cute jacket so she bought that instead.
Then we saw my MOM and soon after that my dad. Then we got ice cream sundaes at wendy's. ICE CREAM SUNDAES AT WENDY'S ARE THE BEST! seriously they are..well from what i've tried.
Mine was cookies n cream, hers was chocolate and they were awesome!
Then we were both thirsty and CJ had some money left over because her jacket thingy cost only 18, so we bought V and used...THE SELF CHECKOUT! lol it was an adventure.
After that she was like 'wanna sleepover!?' and i'm like 'SURE OK!'. We watched True blood. It's the awesomest show it makes twilight look like a bunch of fags. srsly. it's sooo dirty though, but apart from the dirtyness it's awesome! We stayed up late talking.
i didn't get any sleep that night (uncomfortable or somthing) so it's another reason i slept in today.

Sunday was Brittany's party. Thank god more than CJ and I came because that would have sucked for both us and Brittany.
We waited a while with Megan and Lyndal then realised they were already at La porchetta with Amanda and Kayla (spelling?). Lish came a little later then we ordered, CJ and i shared margeritta pizza. We then went to the cinema and waited a while because we were so early, Brittany's mum was really nice and paid for everyones tickets. I used my 20 for lollies and a drink.
Night at the museum 2 was good but it was more of a family movie.
after that Brittany's mum drove us home and i called my rents to get picked up.

After being there i dropped of the present at my friends place, i could'nt stay long because she was really busy but i think she was happy to see me and enjoyed getting the present. i hope she's alright.


Yeah that's pretty much my whole weekend sumed up quite shortly :P

Rant begins....
it's freezing cold.
i have a stupid cold or flu or somthing and  all i've got with me is honey&lemon strepsils and my web-kare game with Hiro-kun.
it would be nice for once....maybe just for once if i was the girl out at a party.
out in the city. somwhere fun, forgetting about danger.
for once just once i'd like a taste of that.
exams are in 2 days. i have 2 days to study.
i'm freaking out. a couple of days ago i was little miss confident thinking it's just like any other test.
WARNING: for the next 2 days i will be an anti-social studying geek nerd.
i know for maths i'm screwed but i don't really care. i'll try my best, i'll study as hard as i can. it's all i can do.

aww damn :( Hiro-kun stopped his shower i cant see him half naked anymore....

I'm just having one of those days. I don't know what to think or feel. I know i'm stuck and i don't know why. How can i feel lonely when i have friends and family? i don't understand. I don't know how to explain.
I don't want to be alone.
i'm not alone.
so why do i feel it?
is it all my fault? I just don't understand...

Maybe i like school better than home. Weeks ago that would be an impossible thought.
I need adventure, happiness and love.
right now i need a hug or somthing of that effect...

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So this week alot has been going on, on tuesday i had the sleepover it was fun but it was a shame Caitlin had to leave early because she felt sick, the next day we basically just go ready for the party which was later on (started around 6:30pm?) and it was sooooo much fun, thank you everyone! possibly the best party i've had besides that one were we went to the movies! we played MARIO KART (on wii)! best game in the world (well to me :P). Went for a walk and got slurpees with my b'day money and went to the park and too random photos. Then we came home, had cake,played mario kart and wii sports.
It was a shame some people could'nt come but those who did are probably the most important people to me. <3

Not much happened after that. Yesterday we went shopping, at first mum and Lachlan went and got small presents and cards for me but after that we did our usual i saw a couple of new shops, one of them was the jewellry shop called equip and i got a necklace from there and while we were walking i saw this super cute bag that i just had to have (instead of loving shoes, i love bags...then again i like shoes too) so i bought that. watched Bloodline last night. 
Today i woke up at 8:30 and had chocolate for breakfast (chocolate bunny i got for easter) then played animal crossing for 2 hours, which was a suprise because i didn't think i played that long!
It's been a very relaxing holiday, 1 more weel left :( i'm going to make the most of it! ^^

Jaz <3

Here is my latest Jasmine-san comic that i did this afternoon, ENJOY!